“My body is ash, saturated gray, invisible on cloudy days, and blown apart with a single puff of wind.”

All I could do was watch,

As if it had nothing to do with me.

Useless, bloated body, 

Avalanching peaks dipping in my valley’s,

Asymmetrical pieces carved from my breast,

Burying this heart in another creature’s chest.

Screams echo empty tragedy

In vibrant, blinking reds

Breaking across my retina’s,

Burning into my memories

Another unmitigated failure.

Time erases nothing,

But diminishes everything.

I threw away my everything 

For the chance at a fraction,

A singular moment to dream…

But I lost.

And I keep losing.

I stopped trying, but the failures keep on coming.

And it hurts… and I want it to stop…

I don’t care about dreaming anymore… I just want the nightmares to end…

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