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“With nothing to keep me grounded, all I can do is drift towards the Sun, waiting for gravity, or at least something like that.”

When gravity fails you don’t fall, instead you drift away into the sky as the heat from the sun increases to give you the world worst case of sunburn, and so you are left waiting as you drift, waiting on anything, something, to come save you. Now, replace gravity with love and the same rules apply. So I’m just waiting, with a sunburned back, on something to save me…

It starts out so simple, just a force of nature, just the gravity that keeps us all grounded; that was his love for her. Is it stupid to have love on par with such a basic force of nature? Well, take it up with God if you’re pissed about it, cause that’s just how things are.  

It ends, and so it turns bitter, and it all feels like it was for nothing, like you gave it your all while they…holy hell, why did you give them everything if they couldn’t give you a single damn thing, not even one word, you were worth one goddamn word, anything, something… it was all for something, right?

Well, they haven’t been here for awhile now, but that touch hasn’t quite faded yet; it haunts everything, every new meeting, every new experience is somehow still touched by her; she’s not there, but he still feels here memory, as fresh as a sunburn at the end of July, roasting every day throughout August to ruin a perfectly good life.

So is anything waiting for you now? Is someone waiting to save you, or is someone waiting for you on the other side? Is God waiting for you to ask for help, or waiting for you to give up? Waiting is just an excuse, like everything else, but it’s the only thing keeping you grounded – and so gravity was replaced with a tainted love that burned into a bitter something, a something so strong not even years could erase its touch, and so the burns never healed, and time stopped because you stopped it, all of it, and now you are waiting for your time to start again…

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Music Mondays: Julia Nunes

Let’s go back. Way, way, wayyyyy back, all the way to 2008. I couldn’t legally buy cigarettes, gas was less then $2 a gallon, and waking up before 6AM was a thing I could do on a daily basis. Enter my first part-time job, creating a small surplus of funds which I promptly spent on my first laptop, thus ridding myself the need of my parents desktop dinosaur. Those were happy times; a period of discovering the wonders (and many, many horrors) of the interwebs.

One of my biggest obsessions of this time period was YouTube. I fell in love with acoustic covers of everything, free piano tutorials so I could trick my friends into thinking I could play piano, and of course the original YouTube artist I claimed as my own. I loved finding these people, with there webcams recording at truly shitty qualities, singing their own music and putting themselves out there for the world to hear (and see). I took pride in having these musicians be my little secret, something I could listen to all day and nobody I interacted with even had a clue of what I was listening too.

My favorite artist of that time, and still one of my favorite artists of all time, is the wonderful Julia Nunes. I found her searching for covers on Ukulele, because I was in a phase, and stuck around after hearing her original tune “First Impressions.” From there my love for her music only skyrocketed. Her songs just felt like they were speaking to me, to us, an entire generation, on a personal level. It had an upbeat, poppy sound at times, but it never felt like she was trying to sell me something, which is how I felt about all music and media at the time. She was something real, and I was really all about it.

Going from webcam recorded solos to EP releases to full blown albums and guest appearances on major TV shows (she performed on Conan before and it was the only time I have ever forced myself to watch late night talk TV live). Her sound evolved and I felt like it evolved with me, in the same way. In this track, “Something Bad”, I feel like everything I love about Julia Nunes is captured perfectly. She’s funny and smiles wide, but makes mistakes and she knows it. Her lyrics can be playful and make it all sound innocent, but I also understand exactly what sucks about wanting something and knowing it’s bad for who we are. I don’t think this is a new revelation or anything, but just hearing it from someone around my age, without a filter, just made me feel like I wasn’t so alone.

Julia Nunes has a few albums out now, and plenty of covers on her YouTube channel, and her Pandora station produces some amazing hits, so check them all out. She’s perfect for a car ride home, a night alone, a party with friends, or a pity party of 1. I guarantee that you will find at least 1 song that speaks to you and will be played on repeat from now until the end of time in your head. Go have a musical adventure, courtesy of Julia Nunes.